love FULLY

• midnight meditation: heart mending ((STILL)) •

I love hard.
I love deep.
I love fully.
Always have.
Is there such a thing as loving someone too much?
Too fast?
My shortest relationship ever was the closest spiritual/love connection I've ever felt with another human being. It was amazing.
It was electric.
Wide open, wanting and READY to build and create with a life partner, my heart was vibrating higher than ever, and it felt so right!
Safe.
Comfortable.
Home.
That special connection when you laugh together (which was often), you gotta clutch your stomach, that type of love where you gotta repeatedly thank the Universe & the Spirits for listening and answering your prayers.
I questioned myself and even asked him "Are we moving too fast?"

I was taught to love unconditionally -  in every interaction, come from a place of love.
My mother exudes love. As a child, teen, young adult and even into my adulthood, I've ALWAYS heard " I love you", always felt the tightest hugs, gentle strokes and received the sweetest kisses from her.
My dance students know they cannot come into my class without giving me a hug.
Spreading love & showing love is how I choose to move through life and in my relationships.

The short lived spiritual love connection ended abruptly.
My love was disposed of in a three minute phone call.
Heart vibration ceased.
Heart center bruised.
Thoughts clouded in confusion.
Pain FULL.
I questioned myself and my love for this person.
"Why did I fall so hard?"
Then I got mad.
Hella mad at myself.
I told myself I shouldn't have allowed myself to love this person after three months, because it wouldn't be so hard to let go and move on.
Not realistic.
I love the way I know how to love: FULLY.
This message + meditation is so timely and necessary for my healing.
My healing (growth) requires transparency:
Honoring, Feeling and Releasing, through thoughts, words, writing and actions.
Despite the heartbreak and hard lesson, I still continue to choose love.
Today.
Tomorrow.
And the day after that.
I won't wallow in regret. 

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