honest adulthood: wide open

8/18/2016

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Last day in Montreal. A visit to Old Port. I was filled with so much gratitude, this was the perfect spot to simply say THANK YOU. Thank you for the strength, guidance and patience to get through it ALL. I didn't think I was going to make it through, but my ancestors had other plans.

WORD THERAPY

i received this message from one of my sisters. she got it.

SHE is becoming

For the past month, I have been struggling emotionally. Life hits you with situations and you must deal with it. As a result, my body shut down. Completely. Change is scary. Growth is never easy. Although thrilled beyond belief at the opportunity, embarking on an international journey with 10 company members, while in this fragile state became daunting. Dance has ALWAYS saved me, but this time, it couldn't. I had/have to save myself. Grief is real. It's painful. It's hard. It's ugly. It's uncomfortable. It's work pushing through it, and I had to finally allow myself to become vulnerable to go through it. It's not over. I'm still pushing, but most importantly, I'm learning to navigate better through the process. On FB, Rara Tou Limen is the dance company that everyone sees through photos and video. In real life, I'm Portsha Terae Jefferson, a human being with struggles, fears, insecurities who is dealing with life issues, and trying to survive like everyone else. Someone very dear to my heart, who is no longer a part of my life, taught me that it's okay to be open and communicative even in these trying times, with community and with myself. I've chosen to use this platform to be open because it is a part of my lesson. It's a part of my growth. It's essential to what I need to do in order to heal and move forward.

Morning Meditation to get me through the thickness. Change is inevitable, but I still have a hard time when it presents itself in my life. I get attached to things and people quickly. Thinking of Yansa, the Winds of Change and how she moves within our consciousness to grow and expand. To transform. To transcend. The Spirit of the Wind has brought on unexpected changes that has given me a greater sense of humility then ever before.

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I am eternally grateful for the lessons and for the experiences on this trip to Montreal. I feel accomplished. When we speak things into existence and believe it will happen, IT WILL! I'm grateful for the opportunity to travel internationally (for the 2nd time) with my dance family, to celebrate the 225th anniversary of Bwa Kayiman, to present my work "Freedom Rising" to the Haitian community in Montreal, to establish friendships, connections and ties that will last a lifetime. Grateful for the journey, with the bumps along the way. Grateful for a new day to start fresh, grow and evolve.
#HonestAdulthood #WritingTherapy #Open #LifeLesson #Gratitude