Last day in Montreal. A visit to Old Port. I was filled with so much gratitude, this was the perfect spot to simply say THANK YOU. Thank you for the strength, guidance and patience to get through it ALL. I didn't think I was going to make it through, but my ancestors had other plans.
For the past month, I have been struggling emotionally. Life hits you with situations and you must deal with it. As a result, my body shut down. Completely. Change is scary. Growth is never easy. Although thrilled beyond belief at the opportunity, embarking on an international journey with 10 company members, while in this fragile state became daunting. Dance has ALWAYS saved me, but this time, it couldn't. I had/have to save myself. Grief is real. It's painful. It's hard. It's ugly. It's uncomfortable. It's work pushing through it, and I had to finally allow myself to become vulnerable to go through it. It's not over. I'm still pushing, but most importantly, I'm learning to navigate better through the process. On FB, Rara Tou Limen is the dance company that everyone sees through photos and video. In real life, I'm Portsha Terae Jefferson, a human being with struggles, fears, insecurities who is dealing with life issues, and trying to survive like everyone else. Someone very dear to my heart, who is no longer a part of my life, taught me that it's okay to be open and communicative even in these trying times, with community and with myself. I've chosen to use this platform to be open because it is a part of my lesson. It's a part of my growth. It's essential to what I need to do in order to heal and move forward.
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